I have been so busy the past week with little time to stop and read blogs or even blog myself. However, it has been a happy, exciting, kind of busy. Not the dreaded, I have so much to do, will life ever slow down, busy. More like the exciting, can't wait till next dr. appointment busy.
Last week, we received some wonderful, truly a gift from God, news. My husband and I are expecting our first baby! That's right, I am about 7 weeks pregnant. I suspected for a couple of weeks with nausea and a late period, so I decided to buy a pregnancy test. Of all places, the dollar store. We thought "ok it's only a dollar if it comes out negative..." But it didn't; it came out positive nearly immediately, and I went to sleep with a big smile on my face, and kept asking myself "is this real?"
Immediately the following day, I went to the women's clinic and got tested, and yes, positive again. I was so happy I wanted to cry; we had been praying for this for some time now. We went to the church chapel to give thanks to God. Only through God can this miracle of life be possible.
Months ago, I was discouraged of pregnancy because of health problems, primarily high blood pressure and high risk of diabetes. Since then I have made some lifestyle changes, primarily in my diet. Over the course of time, I have spoken with different health professionals and received different advice and opinions.
The advise and encouragement that stood out was "yes, there are women with high blood pressure who get pregnant all the time; they just need to take the right meds to keep the blood pressure down, yes it's possible." As far as diabetes, I feel a lot more healthier with my sugar intakes now.
In September of 2010, I became quite ill with what the doctors suspected was endometriosis and advised to get back on the birth control pill. I tried, but the birth control gave me horrible migraines, so I stopped it. The doctor said it would take up to a year to be normal and have regular cycles, and birth control was the only way to regulate it. I decided against that, felt I could bear the cramps and irregular periods, if it meant I would be able to possible - conceive. I left it in God's hands and prayed that His will be done. I prayed a lot for healing, even prayed for God to take the negative thoughts away and teach me to trust in Him and not science and what the doctors said.
I had a couple of false pregnancies with my late periods, so this time I wasn't too excited when I was two weeks late. I just thought "it's another false alarm...there's going to be blood next time I go to the rest room." But all along, I was feeling different, more urgency to go to the rest room, more nausea, annoying saliva in my mouth, extreme fatigue, seriously all I want is to lay down and sleep. But today I truly felt alive, like the realization that life is growing within me, and it's all praise to God.
I went shopping at HEB for some healthy nutritional foods and I actually enjoyed it, instead of dreading walking down the busy aisles. I know there will be ups and downs and more morning sickness, but I am determined to have the best attitude I can have about this pregnancy. I understand there will be trials ahead, such as finding a bigger home and dealing with stress of teaching 9th graders, but I know at the end of the day, my body is changing and there's life within me, growing and feeling.
I leave you with this ... every woman should remember... God is always with us, He is blessing us and taking care of us with unfailing love, and He will give you your heart's desire, even when you least expect it.